Monday, May 25, 2009

Doubting Cristianity

simple logic - few question for u to ponder or take into consideration for ur doubts. Jesus had followers so they would right the truth about his MISSION if not they are not followers but just hocuspocus. (why want to waist time lying - if u are a follower of someone wat wud u do??)
passes dwn orally in the beggining yes. ur argument that there ... Read Morewud be alot of changes to it - yes true - there came the gnostic writtings together with the current gospels. but remember the present gospel writers were the closes to Jesus or the closest time to Jesus so perhaps all of them may have met him at one pont in their live. so it can be considered that the gospels were not result of what the last guy in line said.
they borrowed stories so that they may be almost the same??? How can that be when they have followed Jesus. It is like u and me writing a report on a talk we attended together. How much can it differ?? Can the writers see the future precisely like the event of the council of Nicea whenthe bible was finally put together? This was like 300 yrs later

Jesus Divine? He IS no doubt. God is all powerful and mighty and we are unable to comprehend his greatness which is infinite with our finite understanding. Why not he come down has man and God the same time. He is just like a superhuman, a X-Men. (minus the violence) So why not? Dont ... Read Moreput God into the coconut shell of a human beings understanding. God knew of doubt would arise that is why God inspired the writers to write about Thomas the apostle a.k.a doubting Thomas. why are u forcing urself not to belief? Science itself cant explain everything and behind every door of science there is God. Faith fills this up. Even to believe in Science one needs faith. The Old testament talks about the coming of the Messiah the Son of God - 3 religion believe in this but only one Believe it is Christ the others denied him. The Jews denied him in the beginning so they follow the denied way. Something like the protestants - they follow one man's disagreement to the Church God has entrusted through Peter from the beginning of Christianity. The Muslims i guess forgot about the Messiah and emphasized more on Nabi Muhammad. Jews are still waiting.
The bible is not an autobiography nor and history book. That is not its purpose. Its purpose is to give Basic Information Before Leaving Earth. Salvation. So why look at it and hold it account for what it is not?? Its not fair to the author of the bible.

God is natural so why is it not natural for God to be Man and God at the same time. It is the same with the trinity. 3 in 1.... Read More

When you doubt about something don't forget to doubt ur doubting. Doubt the doubt. If u don't then that doubt may lead u astray. And is this not the geniousity of the devil. Forgetting the existence of the devil is a good thing for the devil too.

Doubt to learn doubt to enrich ur faith doubt no to distant urself. Have faith. God Bless. God's Speed, Shalom!

Sunday, May 3, 2009

ThAnk yOu @ SorRy

To beautiful and strong words which carry lots of meaning and effect to the person saying it and also the person who receives it.
These words when used with sincerity and honesty will leave positive impact on each party.
When u say sorry, for it to be meaningful you would have to forgive yourself 1st and try not to do it again. If it is done again then the sorry u said for the last time would not hold water already. More over if u keep on repeating that wrong then your sorry can be thrown out to the drain.
Now the word sorry when used properly can closen the gap of distance created in any bad situation. Close enough to forgive and become better friends. To actually say a correct sorry is difficult because u would have to come out clean and naked of your worng, humbled with humility to accept ones mistake openly. When it is accepted the person who forgives gets credit of being a humbled person himself and the person who says it would rise victorious in persona.
Now the catch is that when u have strip down naked u r vulnerable for attack and mocking and humiliation. At this time u can also be 'killed' if not by the person who you have wronged but from those around. Evil would continuously rake that mistake of your trying to bring u down as far a possible till u have lost all respect and dignity.
In fear of this people would not want to say sorry sincerely anymore moreover even say it. To prevent this also one would need to build up ego and ego distances people in a relationship. Furthermore those vultures prying on you for the sake of covering up their own low self esteem and wrong popularizes yours. Fearing this too people would not want to say sorry. So how now to say sorry in today's world filled with vultures. Dont you want to protect yourself?
Well rightfully you still must say sorry despite if u will be forgiven or killed as long you have forgiven yourself and also learned from the mistake.
Now here is another road. People say sorry just to clear things just because that word and melt a person. People fake their sincerity when they say it and the person wronged is made more into a fool if he does not realize it. So for such people should they be forgiven pula?? You would be taken for granted, made a joke off and what not. Such people also spoil this word just to get away with their wrong. Irony - supposed when some one says i m sorry one actually has gotten their punishment (coming 'naked') but here they actually get away from it haha. shit!!
Lets look at another road. If you don't forgive them wow! they will scold you for it! imagine that - already have been wronged now have to bow down to their sorry!! haha...weird...when they said sorry did they really mean it then?? If you dont forgive you are the bad guy now and they would get away with their mistakes. phew!!
This pushes you to the corner now where u need to decide if you want to stay alive...cool eh people nowadays. Some people dont care if you forgive them or not they would simply brush a sorry to you and walk away doing the same thing over and over again.
Remember history repeats itself and people will never learn. (Few do)

Sorry taken for granted.

What are we to do now?? If you give in you are condoning their action if you dont then u are bad. what to do? Still forgive and leave it to God. You have done your part. You at least should learn. Its difficult and different situation warrants different action.

The word thank you is not is the vocabulary of younger generation people already. Its mere thanks to satisfy the giver. I have fetched young and old people around. The old one say thank you to me the younger ones dont even in front of their own elders. How much thank you have you said how much have u received if u have given in the 1st place haha?? Many if not some dont even say thank you when it matter most for when u say thank you the same way u have said sorry u have become stripped naked, humbled to the giver. U sincerely appreciate the giver and remember the giver of the right they have done to you. People nowadays dont for if they remember they wud feel naked and lower then you - ego. They would prefer to feel that they have achieved something despite getting help all by themselves. If they dont they they fear people will think that they are weak and need help to achieve something. What adds to this problem is that that there are people who also think that way too.

Thank you and sorry are 2 great humble words and should be thought well to the younger generation. Dont fear the ugly world do what is right insyah Allah God will reward you but u will have to be patient for that reward too. (also don't be wanting for that reward - let not the right hand know what the left hand did). We life in a vicious cycle of fear in our lives. Fear begets fear. Let us not fear anymore and do GOOD not go kill around or screw around too haha. Do GOOD for a beautiful cycle will be what we want to live in.

Wednesday, April 29, 2009

Friends

This was a story I attained from an outing to mass in Church of the
Holy Family, Kajang by our local CSS MMU Cyberjaya :)
In Kajang, we met CSS UCSI, and also CSS UTAR, and then, after the
mass, all of CSS UCSI people and MMU fellows went for makan-makan at
the chinese stalls nearby..

While eating, someone (from UCSI) got a message which touched me a lot..

It was a short story, but sent in one single SMS. It was initially in
chinese, but we requested one of our chinese friends from MMU to
translate it. I listened intently to the whole thing. It goes like this...

One day, there were two friends walking along a desert. They were
chatting and talking about many things, and when they touched on a
certain topic they started arguing and bickering with each other.
Turning out to be a heated argument, one of them slaps the other on
the face.
Then, feeling sad and crying, he/she (not mentioned) bent down on the
sand of the hot desert and wrote "Today, my friend ..(name).. has
slapped me on the face, and I feel so sad and disappointed. "

Continuing their journey, they stumbled upon an oasis (a very rare
area of the desert which has water), and then both of them started to
get excited and jumped into the water. Minutes later one of them (the
one who got slapped earlier) started to drown in the water, and then
his (just using 'his' for future reference) friend swam towards that
direction of the call for help to save him. He successfully caught
hold of him, dragged him to safety and brought him out of the water.

Feeling very grateful, in front of him, a large stone wall, he took a
small stone found on the ground and carved words onto the large stone
saying "Today, my friend has saved my life, and I feel so grateful and
thankful."

Soon as they continued on their journey, his friend (the one who
slapped the other and saved his life) asked him, 'why are you writing
every single event or thing that happens between us? You wanna keep a
diary in the desert?'
His friend replied,

"Writing on the sand is for sad and dreadful things, things that we
should forget. Writing on the stone wall, on the other hand, is for
good deeds that we should remember. Why, because the words on the
sand, will be gushed and blown away and everything written will be
disappeared and forgotten after a very short while; however, words
carved on the stone wall will remain; and hence always stays there for
us to see."

email shared from a friend - eugene (CMO-KLCC)
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We know many people through our lives some may leave an impact bad or good many more might not. How many around us are really friends? Or are they just mere acquaintance? Who and what are friends ? Oxford definition :
A
1 A person joined by affection and intimacy to another, independently of sexual or family love.
2 A near relation. Usu. in pl., those responsible for one.
3 A person who is not hostile or an enemy to another; one who is on the same side.
4 A person who wishes another, a cause, etc., well; a sympathizer, helper, patron,
a supporter of an institution etc., who regularly contributes money or other help.
A helpful thing. LME. c A person who acts for another, esp. (Hist.) as a second
in a duel. E19.
5 An acquaintance, an associate; a stranger whom one comes across or has occasion to mention again.
6 A romantic or sexual partner, a lover. Now a euphemism exc. where qualified as boyfriend, girlfriend, lady-friend, man-friend, etc. LME.
7 (F-.) A member of the Society of Friends. M17.

So ur friends are under which 'A'?
There are many people out there too in disguise of being a friend to you actually is not - they back stab, use you, do not respect you for who you are, take you for granted, stain your image, brings u down etc etc.

How nice if there are really true friends?? this will only occur is everyone in a society your are in have the same mentality of being a true friend for one another.
To break this bond all it needs is mistrust, selfishness, fear and low self esteam of ONE person who will form a vicious cycle creating problems in a group ending up no one trusting each other. I have seen that happening and it saddens. Lots of caliber found within them could not be used to benefit themselves by working together.

I remember times when we were told to make friends then it came a time to be careful which friend you chose (u chose a group to befriend) then be careful who you chose as friends (need resumes now to join the club - cliques appear - i have no cliques in 98% of my life). Further it went trust only a few friends but now dreadfully trust no one. So if you dont trust anyone u would end up on your own and when u r on ur own u need to survive thus doing whatever it takes to survive thus being selfish. Now this is a cycle as ur action will directly or indirectly affect those around you and vice versa everybody will become untrustworthy to everybody. How then to happily live in such environment. Its difficult to be good for people will take you for granted and as a joke. At the same time u cant do bad for these 'friends' are like vultures too waiting for one to do a mistake then use it to bring u dwn even after many years too. what is this world getting into now???

Sadly a 'friend' for me in today's world has become just mere acquaintance. Very few (can count with fingers) will remain true good friends.

Friends including good friends too, come and go and also many times forgotten. But that is ok as long as during that short period of friendship time, quality relationship had developed. And happy moments were etched in memory.

Wednesday, April 22, 2009

ATOMIC

http://cssucsi.blogspot.com/2008/06/chitchat-with-greg-part-1.html

http://cssucsi.blogspot.com/2008/07/chitchat-with-greg-part-2.html

I was the president and founder of CSS UCSI ATOMIC - 2007/2008.
The largest undertaken accomplishment so far.

Malas wanna re-write those though so go ahead to that blogsite to read it if u want to lah but at the same time u can also visit CSS UCSI ATOMIC and also from there go and visit other CSSes around Malaysia.

Heaven and Hell

Whats the point of having heaven and hell. yeah those days by saying this and telling stories people wud get scared and do good just to go to heaven. Now??? Does it still work? Maybe still.

But to go to heaven or to hell one may need to simply.....die 1st... right or not??
When one does lots of good on earth blah blah blah one wud go to heaven after death. Otherwise one would go to hell. So what. In the after life one would either be eternally tormented or eternally live happily ever after.
My point is so what???

Why cant God instead of punishing those bad people on earth when on earth and reward the good people at the same while on earth instead on sentencing them after death.
Why i say this is that bad people when do bad affect others especially the good people and escape happily till they die. Probably subtlely they may encounter some hardships or some downs (God's so called punishment)but there are high chances they might not realize its a form or punishment. So whats the point then. when u r punished u ideally need to learn a lesson right but here they dont and wont. So evil prevails.

Now sadly....the good people would get more temptations with an excuse that they would become more good. But again whats the point of tempting them till death. Reward today, following day get masalah again haha. God is just having fun with us keke. Some more worse that bad people will kacau us and they would get away and we get cought.

No wonder people say hell is on earth. Maybe i would have to agree with that. Hell is on earth so we need to do good to go to heaven, which is not on this earth, which u wud only get in once God has been satisfied with ur performance here on earth. If u r good and have lots of problem then perhaps God is not satisfied with you and would like to play with u more keke. Come on God!! Give the good people some break!! haha.

Frustrations.

People ask why good people die faster than the bad ones. A friend of mine answered well. (a pastor told him) He said that when good people die their function on earth has been achieved and completed. So here we all have a function in live. What is your have u asked yourself or pondered over it. I have found mine but find it hard to do it which is normal. Good things don't come easy. That is why i ask God to give me a break. I ask for help he give me problem haha funny..!!!..(:-P.

God has his plans and we have no mind to understand it. Only faith in Him will keep us going. We may plan all we want but God has the last word. Well at the same time God is not cruel he is very merciful so thank God for what u have already. :-)

ps - this is a cynical post. just to keep ur mind thinking about it for fun.

Help or Not to Help.

yup it is a stupid question. Of cos we must help.
But today's world arr.. not as good as those days i believe.
There are more sohais around, insecure people, backstabbers,
fakers and what not.

These people may come to you for help and u may help them.
Of cos although u do not and should not accept or aspect anything in return
but what if when u need help they, don't help u back or what if they don't treat u well later?? Should u continue to help them when they ask which they will eventually?? Do you still have the heart to help them.

I have a 'friend' who once asked me for my presentation. She wanted to see how i did mine. Do u know how she asked me? "Eh Greg - was ur presentation on iron deficiency accepted by Prof Win?" (ans was a yes) Read that line again.... what does it tell u?
What if my presentation was not good would she still accept it and take a look or will she not? If she does not would that not insult me indirectly maybe directly. Yes one can argue saying that whats the point of looking at a bad presentation?? But to me, is that how u ask? where is ur manners and due respect for the one who u need help from? Furthermore wouldn't a bad presentation serve u to make a better presentation?? Anyway i did send her my presentation with a heavy heart.

Then there are irresponsible people - they will by all means try to find a book (example) and also who it belongs to and borrow it then dun return till the owner will have to go and like beg for it back? sucks right?
I wonder to these people ever think? Ever wonder if they would like it if sum1 does the same back to them? Probably the wont that's the ever shittier part.

So now help or don't? God said that He would help those who help themselves. Not to go against it because i still feel that we should help those who help themselves but arnt all those sohais out there ARE helping themselves by asking for help? How do we know if they are sincere or not or not cheating u? Its hard also hard to say No especially if u are a nice person.
Well a person who helps themselves must be sincere and humble in heartlah that is the catch behind that phrase i guess. So if u think they are being selfish should u still continue to help them? yes u are doing a good deed but at the same time u are being taken for a ride and as a joke.

I think we should not help. (:-O). Now i feel bad writing that but i feel we need to take care of our pride and dignity from those who are threatening it. No point helping a guy who cheats or is selfish. You are just doing the Devil a favor. Talk about how the Devil works. He does bad in the disguise of goodness and that is where people get trapped and confused and makes the gray area grow wider and wider when it only supposed to be a thin line. Grey areas also give a wide range of excuses for people to escape their wrong doings.

Now here comes a weird part - irony. U help some one you are made a fool off and laughed at. U dont help you are tainted as a selfish person and mocked at. So do u want to be laughed at or mocked at? haha No people is there ANY GooD now in helping?
Some might say dont bother just help - true yes many good people were mocked at when they did good - the saints and all even Jesus himself.

Put out a question for urself. Can u take the mocking like how they did. U wanna become a saint or trying to be one? U know now if u constantly be bullied around, u are going to be in a loosing end, loosing out to those sohais (:-D). Others who dont know you well, and bad, if they are those in the top post and ur future is like depends on them, wud have the tendency not to prefer u too.
Yes one can argue that good will prevail but in the mean time u have lost the opportunity and now due to that u would need to work harder to get another. comes another question is it fair??. When u r helping others are u helping urself? Should u help urself?

So when u help some one. How do you help? What is the intention of the 'friend' wanting ur help in ur mind (u maybe wrong and that might make a prob for ur friend - which i wud say oopps?!?!. Even this act can shun away authentic good people asking for help sadly - r u wrong now or not?) How much do you help?

Uhmp! doing a good deed is not as easy as it seems eh...no wonder all do bad haha..

Anging tak mengenang budi (transalated tamil proverb)
God will help those who help themselves
Good will prevail all evil
(some sayings to share related to this topic)

Saturday, April 18, 2009

Catholocism Triad

Catholics are unique in its beliefs just as all other religions are unique in its own respective ways.
we in our faith structure consist of a interdependent triad of God, Community and Self.
The fulfillment of this 3 aspect of the triad makes one a Catholic.
Many other deviations and other religions these 3 concepts are not interlinked but is just a straight line. Beginning with God - Self - Community.

Now lets look at God - Here we learn the Bible and the teachings of Christ; catechism. We believe in it. However we don't take it literally but we take it as a guide and a basic information before leaving earth. Learning the bible alone and saying our whole life must be based on the bible leaves us on a one track railway road and shuns us away from the aspect of community especially, which in the bible itself mentions we ought not too. Also it makes us become selfish as if God only belongs to oneself. (further discussed in future post on interpretations)

Self - ones characteristics, attitude, manners, discipline and all the other moral components. By learning God and His ways how much have we internalized into our daily living. How much has God shaped our life? Some one track minded people praises God on one side but on the other side (if u realize its the community) act differently. For them as long as u praise God, God would reward you. Rubbish i say. Is God so full of Himself that all u need to do to please Him is by Praising Him? But on the other side u contribute to the downfall of His work now, which He came down for us then. Example : everyday go to church and be so active but on the other side u are proud, selfish, hurtful to others. Jesus said that only through Him can they go to God the Father. Many have interpreted it literally saying that only if you belief in Jesus u go to heaven. Walau weh!! Rubbish. See how have they took God for themselves. Does this not contradict later of what Jesus says that his message is for all mankind?? We all know that Jesus thought us to Love one another just as how i have loved you - bringing to say that God is Love. If God = Jesus = Love then don't u think what he actually meant there is that If you show Love u would go to heaven.

Lastly community - Here community means the Church and your neighbors. In the church Catholics ought to follow its teachings and have faith in its structure. (of cos if the structure is defunct then dontlah but at the same time don't have to break and destroy but help fix it from within. unlike last time when it happened, now u see - all broke further and sort of lost themselves). Jesus said to Peter - upon this rock i will build my church. Rock being Peter. He said further what u say here on Earth will be regarded in heaven (something like that) and on Pentecost day he send down the Holy Spirit and set them out to spread His Message of Love. The Church consist oh highly educated religious who constantly pray and do research deepening the faith and further understanding it and therefore its results are dignified and becomes our faith. We do not follow the head or self interpretations on one particular leader. We follow One Body of 2009 yrs of spirituality solid as our faith which the foundations began from the beginning of time as stipulated by the bible.
The other community - neighbor. We ought to do charity and give alms and also do social service. God came to serve and not to be served. And that is what we should do. Serve and offer yourself to the community in whatever way u can and able too. Only then God will reward you.

God did a lot of community service so we to need to do it. But one should not do it just to Glorify God or like an eye wash or like hypocrites. But the service should come from within, and to do so u need to internalize what God has thought u through the teachings of the Church. See the triad.
This is how u evangelize not by brainwashing, showing how superior your God is over the other God's indirectly or playing nice just to attract people like adverts and publicity commercials. Later one being a sucker.

A song goes they will know we are Christians by our Love, so show your Love not parade your God and compare too.

Proud to be a Catholic [God <> Self <> Community <> God]

ps : this write up is based on a conversation between a priest and me